regrets

From eating that last piece of chocolate mousse to loving someone who we probably should'nt have, or not telling somebody how we really feel because we were too scared, we've been there. We've all been there.

They say regret is not really about what you did but what you didn't do. It's about the what ifs and the what could have beens. I was never a risk-taker. I played safe. I stayed in my comfort zone for years. But last year, I took the plunge. For the very first time, I took a risk. To some people, it was a huge mistake. But to me, it was a risk worth taking.

It did not end well, obviously. No happily ever afters. But the mere fact that I decided to take that risk is something that I will never regret. Loving a person can never be a mistake. Well, yeah, maybe there were a few things I could have done differently, but one thing I would never change is the fact that I loved and I will always love.

I've lost four people last year, both literally and figuratively. Four people that will always, always be a part of me. These losses made me realize that life really is too short, too short for even a single what if or a what could have been.